July 15, 2013
I don’t want to gloss over the very difficult and painful things taking place in my life right now, but I also don’t want to dwell on them. I’m saying that because I don’t want anyone to think that I’m Mrs. Pollyanna now. I’m not pretending the crap in my life is a sweet-smelling rose.
No. It absolutely stinks; I just don’t want to dig in it to the point that I’m covered in shit. Finding beauty or joy where I can is a gift I give to myself at a time when I really need some kindness in the world.
So, today, I practiced mindful eating during lunch. My sandwich had a lot more flavor to it than I ever paused to notice. The textures were more noticeable, too. Also, I never realized there are ikat-like pattern on carrots. I think I’m going to have to make my next drawing a carrot after today.
I had a really sweet conversation with cashier in the convenience store at work. The cashier and I are on a first name basis. After a year of buying soda, water, pretzels, and chips from her I finally realized I didn’t know her name. I think I am one of the few people who takes time to find out how she is doing. So, I am grateful for A’s sweet smile and recommendations where to buy kids’ shoes. 🙂
If I sound like I’m grasping at straws, I am, but truth be told there are some days when straws are all you have and they can sustain you until the walls of your mind have more strength to stand.